Honestly, I don't even know why I bother.
Every so often I think I'm missing something and I sign back on to gay.com. And every time I do, I get hit in the face with all the reasons why I left in the first place.
Tonight I decided to check it out again, updated my profile with a new pic (below) and launched into chat. To be immediately assailed by chatbots who want you to sign up for porno websites. And then ignored by the people you used to chat with. And then realizing, once again, what a hollow, shallow place the chat room is, and that you haven't missed a God-damn thing in all the time you were offline.
One of my best friends, who is online a lot, chatted with me for a bit and agreed that it's bad in the chatroom. I'm afraid I just can't understand why he hangs out on gay.com every evening for hours and hours. It seems to me all it does is get him more tired and depressed and cynical about "the gay scene".
Meh, maybe I'll peek in again in 2007 sometime. Or 2008. The time I
would be wasting online I'd rather put towards research for my book, or
losing a few pounds at the gym, or adding tracks to my personal Last.fm station, or evening out my suntan at the beach,
or folding and putting away my laundry, or going for coffee or supper or a funny movie with a some friends.
Sometimes I wonder if it's the same over on the straight boards like lavalive or eharmony.